At The Moment... There's Really Nothing...

Hey There Readers! Yeah, that's what I said, readers. Muahahaha. I have at least three!!! Unless of course my friend posted three times, twice anonymously. Hmmm... That could be true. But hopefully isn't. Sorry for the lack of postage... I haven't had much access to the computer and... Well, I have nothing to write about.
There is not much happening in my life at the moment... since it's the summer. Thus, no inspiration to write about anything specific. Not even movie and TV I watch has inspired me on a blog topic. That is how little is happening in my life. I am leaving for India in less than a month though. That is exciting. Then I will have lots of things to talk about.
But then I'm going to start another blog as well. A just India blog so my parents don't know I have this one. They don't know... it's sort of funny. But then I won't want to post the same thing on both blogs so I will continue posting some stuff here, and I will also post the link to the India blog. That one will mostly be about what I do though, not how I feel, like this one is.
Soooooo, since I really have nothing to write about, (What a lovely 51st post...) I am branching out to you readers! Yes, you! I want you to give me some topics that bother of interest you and I will give my opinion on them. I may think like you, or I may think the opposite. But you never know until you give me your topic! So post those comments. I'm looking forward to them!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

50th Post!!! Time For A Partay!!!

Yeah, that's right. This is my fiftieth post on this blog! Wooh! Excitement!!! These fifty posts are over a period of nine months. (Like a baby!) I have done a lot of stuff and been through a lot of things these last nine months. Should we do a really cheesy, "Let's Look Back!"? Nah. I don't have enough readers to do one of those. As for the readers who have recently expressed their want for me to post more via Honesty Box on Facebook. I'd love it if you would comment on the posts here. They can be anonymous. So you secret likers of my blog, please do so. I like comments on here more than sketchy Honesty Box messages.
Now, on to the goods. Which I haven't figured out what they will be yet. It's the fiftieth post! It should be something special, right? Oh! A goal! If I take another nine months to do fifty more posts, to reach one hundred I will be done in April. Hmmm... Let’s make my goal to have one hundred posts by March. Take off a month... I dunno. I'd love to have one hundred in October. Then it would have taken me twelve months to write one hundred. But that's near impossible now. That's only three months to write fifty posts, and I'll be in India most of that time!
So... I still haven't thought of anything special for my fiftieth post... Oh! I got it! It's not that special, but it's good enough. I sample of my writing. Since I did say I was going to post some stuff, I just never got around to it. So a song... now I have to go find one that fits... Okay, this one is sort of short. But it's the only one that I have typed up that I feel comfortable putting on blogger. The rest of them are either too personal or have rhyme schemes that you need to hear in order to get. Or... they are on scraps of paper in my folder. So here it is...

Starless night
Black, no light
Shines through
For you, to see me

Day’s not soon
Can’t even see the moon
The glowing bright’s not where it used to be

You like? I actually really like this one. It’s one of my personal favorites. I wrote it at a weird time too. One in which I didn't have paper, so I just played it in my head until I got some paper. Thus, I sing it in my head a lot. I'm going to add to it someday. It's a bit short, but sweet.
Well, I guess that's it for the fiftieth post bonanza. Hope you enjoyed my rambling. That's really what this post was, rambling... Okay then, adios.
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna
P.S. On regards to my last post. I just recently found out that being straight edge is also supposedly stereotypical emo... wow; I'm more emo than I thought. Haha.

Cheer Up Emo Kid!

Emo... I'm feeling quite emo lately. Well, this week. I think I'm in another funk or something. I don't know. But I haven't seen any of my friends in god knows how long, people are ignoring me, I've had a lot of doctors appointments, and it's been raining. I normally enjoy rain, but it makes you more depressed when you already are depressed... or sad. That's the better word for it. No Jenna, you are not depressed, (again) you are sad. Yes... sad.
Some would call that emo, I guess. I'm kind of emo in a way... I write lyrics and poetry, some of which is sad. My next haircut I plan on getting bangs, emo bangs. (Haha) And well, people have told me I sort of am. Not people who aren't my friends though. Only people who are reasonably close to me have noticed this side.
You see, I wear bright colors. I like bright colors. People do not associate bright colors with emo. I am also quite hyper and random. Also, neither are associated with emo. So we have decided I am innerly emo. Oooo! Scary!
Well, I really don't have much to write on this topic. I actually don't have much to write at all. See! I am in a funk! Whenever I am sad I get writers block. Unless I'm like really, really, sad. Then I write some odd and violent stuff that is actually really good when I look back. But that's another story. So at least I'm not really, really, sad... There's a plus.
Much Love,
Abundant... Felicity, (For you, wish I could get some)
~ Jenna

I'm Back In Business!

Hey there readers! The negative two readers that I do have. Haha. I'm sure I have more... just none that actually read all the time. Just random people who pop in once, read a bit and never come again. Are you one of those? Or will you continue reading? I hope you are the later. But, that is not the point of this post. The point of this post is to talk about my reentry to the world of role-playing. Yes, that's right. I, Jenna, role-player extraordinaire, has finally launched herself back into the role-playing community after about a year of complete absence and a second year of random smatterings.
Why? You ask. Well, because I have a laptop now! Of course! I have more time to role-play and I don't have annoying brothers kicking me off of the computer right in the middle of a good thread. It's wonderful! It's magnificent!
Now for my history in role-playing and then for those of you who don't know what it is, I shall explain. But first, my history. I began role-playing around the age of twelve on Neopets. Yes, I know I was one of the sad youths who was obsessed with Neopets. Then about a year into my role-playing experience, my account was frozen. I was pissed. It was a really stupid reason too. And my awesome pets and petpets were destroyed.
So, I went in search for another role-playing home, and I found it. Gaia Online. I stayed on Gaia for a long time. I joined it right when the website was getting started up and it was great. There were not a lot of n00bs and people were helpful and nice. Then... I started high school. I attempted to continue role-playing through my freshman year but it just didn't work out, so by the end of the year I stopped role-playing all together.
Now, I have started up again. I tried to go back to Gaia, but it is now too commercialized. It's been in the New York Times for god’s sake. I mean, I'm happy for the site. But it was so little and cozy when I joined... now... it's not. The site I'm currently on I won't disclose so you can't come searching for me. Haha. I may someday, but not at the moment. I'm just starting to establish myself again on this site, and it is quite fun being back.
For those of you who don't know what role-playing is. You could check Wikipedia, or listen to my explanation. Role-playing is like telling a story, or writing a book. Except, you are only in control of one character. Others around you play the other characters. You take turns posting what your character does and how it interacts with everyone else’s. You can role-play one on one, but I prefer groups, so if your current story is boring you can read what is happening around you. No, I do not do sexual role-plays. I do not cyber. Most naive non role-players assume that is what you're doing when you speak of role-playing. Real role-players don't do that. There is no story or substance, plus it’s perverted and wrong anyway. I just tell stories, like writing a book. A pg rated book. Haha.
Well, if you have any questions for me or really want to know my current role-play home add a comment. I may get back to you. Now, I'm going to get back to my role-playing. For it is great fun!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

Insignificantly Enough, It Makes A Significant Difference

People can be extremely nice sometimes, making you happier and feeling better about yourself. But other times people can also be very mean, causing you to feel unhappy and bad about yourself. Sometime these nice and mean things are intentional, done so you can feel those feelings. The most influential though is when these things are unintentional. When someone unintentional makes you feel nice abut yourself, it feels a lot nicer than if it is intentional, because you feel it is from the heart. But the same goes for unintentionally, though the bad act may not necessarily be from the heart, it is at least done subconsciously, unknowing of the hurt it causes. And thus, causing more. Well, that is the way it is for me at least...
So pretty much, it hurts, it hurts badly when someone does something that unintentionally bad to me. Whether that be not returning an e-mail or phone call that I expect a reply from, or not noticing me as I walk past you in the hall. I know, I know, I do these things too. But that is why I am writing about it. About this dilemma in human kind. People often unintentionally hurt other people. It's a dilemma for the ages.
But there is always a flip side. The unintentional help. The little acts that people do that you often take for granted. You may not even realize that it may put a smile on someone’s face when you hold a door open or pick up something someone may have dropped. I personally have been noticing it a lot more lately, being on crutches and all. I'm always stuck hoping someone will open a door for me now, for it is hard to do it without transferring my crutches to one hand and holding the door open with my back while I attempt to hop through. And when you are left hoping for these little acts of good will, you obviously notice them more.
Well, I guess the point of this little post is to watch what you're doing. You could be hurting someone badly, or brightening someone’s day. Technically its sort of good when you don't notice the good things you do. For then they become habit and you make more people happy. Making people happy is good. I love being happy!!! But let me tell you it is quite hard being happy when you are stuck wearing crutches and a knee brace... I just say look at the bright side, people open doors for you more!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

The New Layout And Other Random Thoughts

How do you like my new layout? I was getting bored of the pink and I had heard some comments about it being quite bright... though it was black. I don't really enjoy pink that much anyway. I have recently started to really like red, so I decided upon a red layout/template. So do you like?
I like it. I think it fits well with me and all that. How about you? I just keep asking questions don't I? Hahaha. Well, it took me awhile to find this layout. I found one but all the text was in an ugly gray color and I couldn't find a new color that matched. So I decided upon this.... it has butterflies. Hahaha.
I'm currently listening to some Andrew Lloyd Webber songs. He is amazing, did you know that? I love him. I wish I could meet a composer like him and they could help me put music to my lyrics. That would be more amazing than anything. Maybe it will happen, right?
Oh god I love the song "Don't Cry For Me Argentina." He is so amazing, did I say that? That's why he is so rich, because he is amazing. Most people who are amazing end up being rich, and most people who are rich are amazing or have amazing parents. That's how it works. I hope I'm amazing or will be amazing. That would be amazing. Hahahahaha.
I wish life was a musical. I know I have already written a post about that but I really do. And listening to amazing musical music makes me wish it all the more. Alright. I'll let you go so I can ramble within my mind rather than in type. Hahaha. Adios.
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

YAY!!! I HAVE A NEW LAPTOP!!!

Oh my goodness! This is so exciting!!! I have anew laptop!!! Wooh!!! It's so exciting. My old laptop was my step-dads and it didn't have internet capabilities. Now, I have an awesome new computer with all sorts of great stuff on it and the internet!!! Wooh!!! Excitement!!!
So now I can post much easier and all that stuff and it should be so much greater and I'm so excited if you can't tell from my extreme rambling. I'm on it right now by the way. I enjoy laptop keyboards. They are nice and make cool noises. Hahaha.
Well, its a Dell inspiron and it has a bunch of memory and RA and stuff and it was on sale so it was a great deal. I love great deals!
So I am currently adding all of my c-ds on to the itunes on my computer. Then I'm going to move everything that is mine form my family desktop computer to this computer. Well, not everything but a lot of stuff. That will make my family happy for it will make that comp a bit faster because it is jam packed with stuff. Seven different people use it, what do you expect? Well, now my older brother and I have laptops so it will be faster. Isn't that nice?
This comp also has a webcam so I can talk to my family and friends when I'm in India. That will be very convent and nice and fun to do. Ahh!!! I absolutely love my laptop!!!!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna
P.S. A new interesting post will be coming soon. Haha.

My Oppressive Step-Father

My Step-father. I love him to death. I've known him my whole life and he is no doubt like a second father to me. But, at times, he can be a bit over protective. Oppressive is how I like to think of it when I’m not very happy about it. He has all sorts of ridiculous "rules" about what I can and can't do. I'm never sure if he is actually serious about some of them or not. So when, not if, I break them I'm not sure how he will feel about that. I already have broken a few and I have no idea how to tell him, or if I ever will. I hate hiding things from my family but he makes it impossible not to if I want to have a normal life. Not that my life is anywhere near normal in the first place. What is a normal life anyway? Whatever, never mind, topic for another day. Hahaha.
So first, usage of technical equipment. I can barely ever use the computer and he hates it when I talk on the phone. The thing is, when I am IMing people he tells me to use the phone!!! It's very frustrating. He often doesn't let us use the game consoles he bought for us or watch TV at night like normal people. But whatever, I've learned to get around those things.
The thing that annoys me the most about his oppressive attitude is he view on my interaction with guys. His view is none at all. Like I can't even have friends that are guys. The thing is that he went to an all guys school so he didn't really have a large amount of interaction with women during his high school years. What I have heard about such interactions is not good stuff; pretty much he thinks all guys are like he was. And if that's how he thinks I can't blame him for trying to protect me in this way. But he isn't my Dad; therefore he doesn't really have control of me in that way. My Dad doesn’t even! It frustrates me because if I mention a guy’s name who may be a friend he instantly asks me who they are and stuff. I don't even know if he's serious about half of it though. It just leaves me pissed and confused about the whole matter.
But whatever, I'll learn to get better at hiding things form him. Hahaha. It's worked so far. So, do any of you have any sort of oppressive parent or something? Please share.
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna
P.S. To emphasize my point. Right when I finished this post I had to get off because my step-dad was kicking me off. Now that I have edited I can put it up. :)

The Nerve Of Some People!

I'll just say I'm sorry once instead of a million times like I usually do. So, sorry for not posting for a long time. I was busy with annoying and not so annoying things, including recovering from getting hit, vacations, and Rock Band for Wii. I'll just get started then.
So, as many or all of my few readers know I got hit by a car two weeks ago. I couldn't give too many details last post so I will now. This will eventually unfold to explain my choice of title. I'll begin with my injuries.
They told me in the hospital I didn't have any, but five days later they call my mom in Hilton Head and tell her my pelvis might be cracked and I might have a chip in my knee. Nice, huh? Well, I have now gotten a cat scan of my pelvis and it's fine. On Wednesday I'll have an MRI of my knee to see what's wrong but it shouldn't be that bad according to the doctor. I can walk just fine, well there is a bit of a limp, and they still want me to be in my knee brace and use crutches. Screw that! I like to walk on my own thank you. Though I am supposed to keep weight off of my knee... And that's pretty much the depth of my injuries. I was pretty lucky.
So, the other day, I think last Sunday, my mom and I went to go get the police report. Let me tell you right now, it's a frickin stupid police officer who wrote that report. I did not, and I repeat not run in front of that car. I kind of walk-leaped. It was by no means run. The only accounts he got was the driver, who wanted to make herself look good, and the mail man who didn't have a good view. And the mail man did not call out to me, the lair. Maybe he did, after the car hit me, but that's too late buddy, I was knocked out by then.
So yeah, the police report did not make me happy. It makes me sound like an idiot. I looked both ways; there were no cars when I looked. Five seconds later she's there hitting me. And she has the nerve to say I ran out! She was speeding!!! Frickin woman ruined my summer and she makes me out to be an idiot. I can't do zilch this summer but sit and she only has to pay some insurance bills. She hasn’t even come to see if I'm alight! Can you believe that?!?!?
Well, whatever. It's almost over anyway. I should be fine by the time anything that matters starts. They just are really annoying. But whatever. 'Till next time.
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna