Premonition Or Something?

As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I think I have some sort of premonition or something. I don't know what or how but I always get these weird feelings before things happen. Just the other day, it mat have been yesterday even, I was watching a movie and I suddenly got this urge to do something, but I told myself I had to finish the movie first. So after I finished the movie and I went to go do this thing I had an urge to do I realized that I had missed an opportunity that I had been waiting for that I wouldn’t have missed if I had done this earlier. It is quite frustrating in a way.
It goes both ways though. A few months ago I had this odd feeling that we were going to have a pop quiz in one of my classes, so naturally I studied for it. Then the next day, we had a pop quiz!!! I would have failed if I hadn't studied, I was blown away. Other things like that have been happening to me from time to time now. Either I’m just lucky, I have some sort of sixth sense, or there is something out there attempting to guide me.
Today and yesterday I have felt all jittery, all day. There is this odd, slightly innerving feeling in the pit of my stomach. I feel like something impactful is going to happen soon. I have no idea what, whether it is good or bad. Just big… And obvious it will affect me. Ahh! It has been bothering me all day when I noticed what kind of feeling it was. Yesterday I threw it away for stir craziness, but now I know it's not that.
This sounds so odd, and maybe a bit egotistical... I don't even know. I'm probably just being paranoid. Well, maybe it will happen tonight or tomorrow. I shall definitely let my blog know (not my readers, since no on reads it... haha) if anything happens. Wish me luck that it is good!!!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

Other Bloggers, Other Styles.

A friend of mine has recently started a blog, she says inspired by the fact that I have one. Well, over the course of reading her blog I have noticed we have completely different styles. I mean, that was predicable before, but this just makes it certain. You see, she has been blogging for lets say... a month. And I have been blogging for five months... almost half a year now. And already she has nearly the same amount of posts as me. It's almost annoying. Hahaha.
Well, I checked this out and her posts are quite small compared to mine. Plus she writes differently. She tells of experiences rather then thoughts and feelings. She adds pictures and talks about real people. I attempt to hide others identities and I would never put a picture of myself or others up on his kind of site. It probably comes from my excessive amount of time on the internet. I would call myself a member of the internet community, and through this membership I have made guidelines and restrictions for myself. Guidelines and restrictions that others do not have.
I'm not saying that it's going to happen to my friend, but often the people who do not have such guidelines are the ones who are victimized by pedophiles and the like. This makes it harder for those of us who are smart with the internet and its people. Newbs, you could call them, or even n00bs some of them. My friend is no n00b, just a newb. New to this whole community. It's funny to see how she goes about it. Well, if she reads this she will probably know who she is and I wish her luck in her blogging venture. Sorry for writing almost harshly about you, I love you!!! :)
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

Happiness and Good Fortune, Everything Seems to Be Going My Way!

Oh My God. That is what I must start with, for this is an "Oh My God" moment, if there ever has been one. Life, at the moment, is nearly perfect, nearly absolutely perfect. Most everything I have been hoping and waiting for has come true!!! (Notice how I said "most everything," you can't get everything you want, right? But I'm working on it. Hahaha.)
Well, you see. Yesterday I learned that I got in a program that I have been so excited about. I will be one of twenty people to pilot the new SYA program in India! Ahh!!! And to make it better, one of my best friends is coming along with me!!! This is sooooo amazingly great!!!!
Another thing, I just talked to my step-dad about skipping crew (rowing) and doing the play instead and without any hesitation he said yes! My mom was the one who wanted me to do crew so I would have some exercise. But let's face it, I’m no athlete, and theater is hopefully my calling. Hahaha. Either that or writing.
So I shall now be happy about no crew and in six months I will be blogging from India for four months. Ahh! This is so exciting and wonderful. I also just got back from Belize, which let me tell you, was soooo much fun. But, a new and different experience.
You see, there is no drinking age in Belize and a certain plant-like drug is in easy access. So, my peers took advantage of this during the night, which can get annoying. I didn't of course do anything, for I am a self-proclaimed straight edge. (No drugs, no alcohol, no smoking, no random/casual hook-ups/sex (as in, I have to be in an actual relationship to do those things), and eventually for me, a vegetarian... There's more but I don't follow that stuff yet.) So you can see how this got annoying when nearly everyone was drunk and high every night when I was completely sober. It was fun in a way. Especially since they often don't remember telling me things or doing things that I can use for blackmail or as a joke later. I probably won't though, I'm not that mean. Hahaha. Other then the night life, Belize was the most amazing thing I have ever done. I can't wait for India.
Well, I think this is enough for today. Sorry about not posting for awhile, I've been in Belize. Hahaha. I'll post again soon!
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna

Why the Ups and Downs God? Why?!?

Ever notice that life has some severe ups and downs. Maybe it's just me but I dunno, I notice it. I'm not particularly religious, if you were wondering. I do believe there is something up there, but I don't quite know what, or how many... But yeah, I was raised Roman Catholic and I call whatever it is, God, for now. And I believe these up and downs are because of God. I think he forgets about me from time to time, or he moves on to people who need help a lot more then me, just like I tell him to in my "prayers." (They are not classic prayers... more like a conversation with a friend or something...) Well, I tell God to go help the sick people of the world and he listens and leaves me in the cold. Hence depression... God needs to learn how to help other people while still staying with me! Hahaha... No, I'm kidding, he doesn't leave me completely. I always feel that something is with me during my times of doubt and sadness. I know there is because of the little things that happen that save me from my complete sadness. You know, when you find the slight good in something bad. "Well, that happened, but at least it happened this way and not that way." You know?
So, I'm writing this post because God has put me back in the ups... Thank him forever. Everything right now seems to be going my way. I got to skip a practice that would have been hell, I heard a teacher was talking about me in a good way about something I want to happen, spring break starts tomorrow, I'm going to Belize, problems with my friends seem to be clearing up, and a few other things I'd rather not post publicly. Hahaha... So yeah... I tis happy. Quite happy in fact. And it is a nice change. But, to totally bring myself down, I have noticed I have cycles... So soon I may fall back down into depression, lets just hope I don't. Tis a good life I lead now. Thank God.
Much Love,
(Or my new closing... With means Much Happiness)
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna
P.S. I’m not saying God is a "He" it's just easier to write that then He/she each time.