I Don't Know If I'm Ready For This...

I'm going to be turning eighteen in a matter of weeks now, a legal adult. It's starting to scare me out of my mind, to tell you the truth. For by the time my birthday arrives, many things are and should be happening.
My older brother is going to college. I know my opinion doesn't matter, but I don't think I want him to go. He's my only older brother and he's been there for me, in a sense, my entire life. Now he's going away to college and I'm starting to look at colleges. I know it's going to be quite awhile now when we have the whole family together at once. And soon, he'll move out completely and we'll never live together again. It's rather depressing.
I'm starting my senior year as well. This is on one side totally awesome, the other side incredibly frightening. As I said before, I'll be looking at colleges, but I'll also be attempting to keep my grades up, juggling two AP courses, writing a large number of plays, and a hack of a lot of other things. And that doesn't even mention the inevitable drama of a high schoolers life. Not that I didn't have enough drama during the summer to last me a school year.
I should be getting my license and a job soon too. Yes, I know I should already have my license by the age of eighteen, but a lot of things came up. And well, you don't want to get me started on the issue. I feel different this year too, and hopefully it will be good different, but who knows. I don't think I'm ready to "grow up" yet though. I'll legally be an adult, but I don't think I can handle the adult world yet. I'll just have to ready myself over the course of my senior year. This is going in be difficult in many ways, this year...
Much Love,
~ Jenna

How Many Days Left?

Half of me is counting down the days of summer boredom, waiting for them to end. The other half is freaking out inside because I still have a TON of stuff to do before I'm ready to go back to school. But I think I'll have time, so I'm mostly waiting for them to end. Haha.
This summer has been quite eventful. Even more so than the last summer when I got hit by the car. Then again, that was only one big event. This summer has had many little events. And that's the way I like it. I feel like I have made some lifelong friends in my different places and ways. I've become a little too trusting, but my confidence is through the roof compared to where it was this time last year.
I'm really excited for my senior year. I like the person I am right now. I'm a good person again. I think I can really make a splash if I try and I'm thrilled with the possibilities. Yes, there are some things I wish I hadn't done this summer and some things I'd still like to change about myself. But I'm working on that. No regret, remember?
So just a quick update while my life is still going slow. School starts in less than a month and my birthday is in exactly a month. I'll be eighteen. Scary, huh?
Much Love,
~ Jenna

Gaining Popularity?

I think I am! I seem to get more people checking out my blog now. Though... I still only have one faithful follower in the official sense. But I've gotten some friend invites on youtube and I have at least three subscribed. It makes me happy. Very happy. Which is good, because lately I have been sad. And it sucks. I hate being sad.
But the point of this post is to give you my new vlog update. I put two more up, one of which I made in June. That one you'll have to go to my youtube channel to view. I have the link to that somewhere on the right. But the other one I'll put right here. So enjoy! Don't forget to follow me on blogger, subscribe on youtube, and follow me on twitter as well! Love you guys soooo much! Viewers and readers are great! (Even if I happen to know all of them personally... I always thought it would be cool to have some random people I don't know read this...)
Much Love,
~ Jenna

Too Much Makes For Too Little

I haven't been posting, yet. And unlike my usual excuse, that there is nothing to write about, there is too much to write about now. Way too much is happening in my life right now and all at the same time. It's the summer time! This isn't supposed to happen now. But it is, and I've got to deal with it. Or rather... not. You see, the problem with this is that when this occurs in my life, instead of addressing these problems, I ignore them all. And I'm perfectly okay with that. At the moment I'm leaving them all be.
But still. They are there breathing down my neck. Humph. This is a short post but I'm so distracted right now that I can't post more. Damn it. Yes, I swore on my blog. Go cry about it. Yes, I am also being kind of cruel on my blog. Now good bye for now.
Much Love,
~ Jenna