Blocked Against Good-byes...

Do people really get better at saying good-byes? Or do we just learn to block our heart from the pain. I mean, I just left twelve other people most of which I had gotten quite close to, for possibly ever. I may never see them again. It's almost definite that I'll never see all of them again. Yet, I am not tearful... yet. When I left people in India, I bawled my eyes out right away. But then again, four months is a big difference from a week. I still think I should be more emotional about this. Good-byes are hard... but am I getting used to them?
This experience was the most amazing thing ever. Second to India, definitely. But this was also all the awesomeness packed into one week, rather than four months. So, it is very different. A full week of awesomeness is now over. I hate endings. Even happy ones. We had better have a "reunion" or something. I have to stop or I may start crying on the train. I'll look very odd crying on the train. Haha. So yeah, I'm on the train home. I'll keep ya posted about my now boring summer. I might be getting a job... But I am at the theatre too. That will be interesting. So yeah, keep watching!
Much Love,
~ Jenna

I'm Done! Woo-hoo!!!

I just finished my amazing play. It's super awesome. You know, for that playwriting workshop I've been at this week. My play is super emo though. It's kind of funny how emo it is, in fact. But it's okay, I love being emo!!! Woot!
I am so excited about tomorrow night! We're having a staged reading of all the plays from everyone doing the program. It will be awesome. I can't wait to see everyone else's. We have been seeing each other's work throughout the week. But that is on the whim stuff. This, on the other hand, we actually have been editing and putting effort into. So it will be completely different. I think I'm going to shock some people.
So yeah. Done. Done. Done. By the way, this thing has been awesome so far. We started a Facebook group because we're super cool and all that. I really genuinely like the majority of these people, almost all of them in fact. Actually, I do like all of them, just some things annoy me that a small number of them do. But nothing to dislike about.
Finally, I've done something by myself with no friends with me and I'd say it was successful. I actually have grown as a person I think, even though it hasn't even been a full week yet. New people always make you grow as a person. It makes me happy, I'm overly happy right now. Yay!
Much Love,
~ Jenna

Writing... Writing... Writing...

So I'm here in New York for that program I was talking to you about. It has been amazing so far. So much fun, and in... how many days?... Three, I've learned a hell of a lot. So yeah, I'm happy about that. Very happy in fact. Plus I have been writing non-stop due to it. And you all know how much I love to write. Hahaha.
The people here are really cool and interesting people. I need to stop being shocked about the people in groups I end up with. I, for some reason, expect them all to be the same. But they never are. Shocking, eh? I mean, there are similarities about everyone, but each person is their own unique character. And characters they are. There is no one who would bore me if I saw them in a play or movie. All interesting in their own way.
This being the first thing I've ever done "by myself," I expected it to be a lot harder to get adjusted and be myself. But on the contrary, it was so much easier. There was no one I knew to hold me back from being the person I wanted to show. I really like that feeling. So I have been myself, more and more coming out each day scaring people. Haha. But they're theatre people too. They shouldn't be scared!
Much Love,
~ Jenna

In the Air... Or Just About

Yo dudes. I'm at the airport right now waiting for my flight to be called for New York. I'm super uber excited, so much that I don't know what to do with myself... Therefore, I am writing an entry for my blog, that once again I cannot post until I have internet. There is internet here in this airport but you have to pay for it, and why would I pay for it just for a blog post and less than an hour. If I was here for four hours, I may consider. But I'm not, so I'm... not.
Anyway, I'm excited. If I meet Steven Soundheim I will have to take a picture. Even if he resists I shall make him take a picture with me. After I faint of course. I don't think I'd be able to be in the presence of my biggest and greatest idol without fainting. That is, if I meet him. Oh I hope to dear god that I will. It would make me life... Ahh!!! I'm sooooo excited! I can't even talk about how excited I am that's how excited I am. Actually, it's all I'm talking about!!! In about three hours I shall be at the most awesome week long summer program I have ever encountered! I can hardly wait!!!
Much Love,
~ Jenna
P.S. I'll keep you posted!

I'll Just Call My Connects

First off, I'm adding four posts, including this one today. I finally have internet to post these things. I'm only in Hilton Head for two more days, then I will probably have more internet but less time, while in New York. So yeah, read these now. More will come later.
Secondly, the point of this post. I love my Step-dad, and I love his job. I am making so many connections! People who work for the AHL know so many people. The reason I'll get into college is because of them. Hahaha. Nothing to do with me... except for the fact that I've made them love me. Haha. But really, I have a bunch of people telling me how awesome I am and how they want me to come visit them. That may be the wine talking, but it's still makes me feel happy. It's official that two people have told me I have a strong ego, in a good way. Haha.
Well, I love people and I love connections. It will be good. My life shall be good now. Haha. There's a ego for you. Eh, I don't have anything else to write right now, so short post. Plus, Mulan is on TV and distracting me. Haha. Love that movie!
Much Love,
~ Jenna

Rain, Rain, Go or Stay?

Yo, yo, yo. Signing in again to talk about... Guess what... Don't know? The weather!!! (Yes, again...) But this time in a different sense. In the sense of rain, rather than temperature. (Which, by the way, is quite comfortable at the moment.) It is raining bunny rabbits right now! As well as the usual cats and dogs, that's quite a lot of rain. It's so cool because our condo thing has all these sunroof windows so it is pounding down like there's no tomorrow.
It's been raining non-stop for like two months back at home, so coming here to Hilton Head was supposed to be a break from constant precipitation. Well, no dice I guess. It's raining here now too. And a lot. But I'm not sure if I like it or not. It is really cool rain, with thunder and stuff, the works. But it is also keeping me off the beach, which is quite sad... It is keeping me from tanning my incredibly white skin...
But I don't know... It ought to go soon so I can gain my healthy glow and lose my creepy paleness. Hahaha. Tangent warning... My parents are complaining about my eating again. I barely ever eat and they seem to be convinced that I'm always eating!!! When stuck at home I eat frequently, but little amounts. I don't eat a lot and it pisses me off when they call me out for it one day and then yell at me for not eating all day and realizing this at dinnertime. Gosh darn their... I can't think of the word, but gosh darn it!
Anyway, the weather... Actually, I think that's enough of that. I'm going to go back to the writing of my new play, Sequin Confetti. Love ya!
Much Love,
~ Jenna

Weather You Like It Or Not

All right, here I am in Hilton Head. But you probably won't read this until I'm out because I won't be able to post it until then. The internet in our rented condo house thing sucks. My brother just got an itouch and he can't do anything with it because he has no internet. It's kind of funny... in a cruel older sister kind of way. Today is his Birthday too... I shouldn't think so meanly of him. Hahaha...
Well, today my topic is the weather. No, this is not idle conversation chat. This has a purpose... and probably a rant. To be specific about the weather, the temperature. Have you ever noticed that when it is cold outside people crank up the heat so it is very warm inside? Or when it is hot outside people do the opposite and make it very cold? It doesn't make sense, we should just try and make the temperature comfortable inside at all times. I don't like to have to get a blanket because I'm cold inside when it is 90 degrees outside.
I'm not complaining about it being hot or cold outside. I'm complaining about people with itchy thermostat fingers. When they come inside from the heat, they want to be bathed in cool air, not comfortable room temperature air. It's a waste of energy, that's what it is. And it is not green in the slightest. Stop it people, if you're one of them, stop it. I'll still love you if you do.
Much Love,
~ Jenna
P.S. When I get back, I'm going to attempt to do that vlog I promised. Plus, I have a new surprise in store that I'd like to introduce with the vlog. See you in two weeks!
P.P.S. Happy Birthday to my brother Dan!!!

Why So Short?

Hey guys, I'll be going to Hilton Head tomorrow and then New York, so don't expect too many posts for about two weeks. Trust me; it's going to torture me more than you. One, because I doubt many of you care about this blog all that much... note the sarcasm that would have heard if I spoke this aloud on the phrase "many of you." Hahaha, it's true, don't deny it. No one reads this. But it is for my own pleasure, not yours. If it brings you pleasure too, then so be it. Anyway, two. I will not have internet. I live on the internet. Half of my life is on the internet. I'm going to die without it. A painful death... well, maybe.
So, on to the point of this post, shorts. My mother and I went shopping earlier today for some last minute things for our trip. I decided I needed a pair of black shorts. The only kind of black shorts I have are the sporty kind, you know. So I needed a nicer pair. Problem is, all the shorts are... short. I mean, they take the name quite literally. Either I get Bermuda shorts down to my knees or I get booty shorts that make me look like a skank. So I have to choose, dweeb at the beach or prostitute at the beach. That is quite frustrating, let me tell you. I eventually found a pair that was reasonable. Leaning toward the skank side, but reasonably okay. It is just quite odd that shorts are so short now a 'days. This makes me sound old, but I remember when they were at a comfortable length. Well, maybe it's my age and people my age are supposed to want to look like skanks. Because when I was in elementary school and shopping in the kids section, I never had this problem...
Much Love,
~ Jenna

I've Looked Into The Eyes Of The Beast...

...And his name is laziness. Yup, that's right, I've been just plain lazy lately and I don't know why. The free time that I had is running out and I have things to do and I'm not doing them. I don't even know what I'm doing instead. Useless things. Multiple useless things at the same time. It's kind of insane.

Now I have many things to do and I have yet to do them. Great. I'm productive. Hahaha. Well, as you may have seen I added my twitter feed to the blog. I'll update that each time I update this and more when I feel like it. So follow me if you want. I also added some of my favorite music, just for fun. So enjoy that too.

Anything else... Well, I can't think of it... Life's been pretty boring. Oh yeah! I'm going to Hilton Head on the 4^th and then I leave there to go to New York City on the 11^th and I'm there until the 19^th or so. So my posting, as it has been, will be pretty patchy... But I'll try. Espeicially the second week since that should be eventful.

Well, that's all I can think of to write today. Follow me on Twitter and friend me on Youtube!!!

Much Love,

~ Jenna