Why the Ups and Downs God? Why?!?

Ever notice that life has some severe ups and downs. Maybe it's just me but I dunno, I notice it. I'm not particularly religious, if you were wondering. I do believe there is something up there, but I don't quite know what, or how many... But yeah, I was raised Roman Catholic and I call whatever it is, God, for now. And I believe these up and downs are because of God. I think he forgets about me from time to time, or he moves on to people who need help a lot more then me, just like I tell him to in my "prayers." (They are not classic prayers... more like a conversation with a friend or something...) Well, I tell God to go help the sick people of the world and he listens and leaves me in the cold. Hence depression... God needs to learn how to help other people while still staying with me! Hahaha... No, I'm kidding, he doesn't leave me completely. I always feel that something is with me during my times of doubt and sadness. I know there is because of the little things that happen that save me from my complete sadness. You know, when you find the slight good in something bad. "Well, that happened, but at least it happened this way and not that way." You know?
So, I'm writing this post because God has put me back in the ups... Thank him forever. Everything right now seems to be going my way. I got to skip a practice that would have been hell, I heard a teacher was talking about me in a good way about something I want to happen, spring break starts tomorrow, I'm going to Belize, problems with my friends seem to be clearing up, and a few other things I'd rather not post publicly. Hahaha... So yeah... I tis happy. Quite happy in fact. And it is a nice change. But, to totally bring myself down, I have noticed I have cycles... So soon I may fall back down into depression, lets just hope I don't. Tis a good life I lead now. Thank God.
Much Love,
(Or my new closing... With means Much Happiness)
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna
P.S. I’m not saying God is a "He" it's just easier to write that then He/she each time.