Anger is For Those Who Aren't Calm Enough to Be Passive Aggressive

Do you know what I hate? When people shirk their duties. Then, leave you to deal with your own duties as well as yours. And when everything falls apart, it makes you look bad. When really, they couldn't have done it on their own either. But you were the only one put in the situation. And you would never do the same for a long unexplained period of time.
You start a commitment; you have to stay with it. Hence the name, commitment. I'm angry with some people for this. I never thought I would be angry with these specific people, but I am. I've been left to deal with something on my own. And now, it's falling apart. And well, who does it look like is at fault. Me. Cause I was the only one there. But I struggled to keep it afloat. But, just like these people who left me because they had so much going on in their lives. I have the same. My life is a fricken whirlpool of things right now. But we don't consider other people's lives when we shirk our duties. No, we just leave them to fend on their own.
I've been singing my ass off for all these concerts this week and next week. Teachers are piling the work on due to Holiday break coming up soon. I'm stage manager in this year's musical, which is more work than you might think. My parents weren't home all week, I had to deal with my grandparents and help them with my little siblings. It snowed for the first time this year, and thus led to my first driving experience on the snow. I hydroplaned, almost killed myself, and thus was shaken for a day. I told my mom something recently, and we have yet to talk about it, but our relationship seems slightly strained. All my friends are learning about Early Decision colleges all around me. I have to comfort or congratulate them, while worrying myself. And on top of all that, throw a guy into the picture and a few overly needy friends who force me to go to every meal with them and you have a small extent of my problems.
So yeah. My life is not a cakewalk right now either. But I have kept up with these duties. Or at least put on the semblance of it. Now these people are going to whisk back in and look like the heroes. Leave Jenna in the dust again. As usual. I'm always the second thought.
Much Love,
~ Jenna