Who Am I To Judge?

I guess I come across as judgmental. Some people have told me that people have told them that they think I am judgmental. One of my friends seems to persistently tell me "Don't judge me!" And I always reply, "I don't judge, trust me!" Yeah, I don't judge. I don't know why I come across as judgmental, maybe it's my natural look on my face. Maybe it screams, "I'm judging you." I don't know. Well, I do. Sort of.
You see, I'm straight edge. I may have mentioned this before but who cares I renew your weak feeble memories. (Yes, you are weak and feeble. Hahaha) So straight edge is a personal choice. When one decides not to drink, do drugs, smoke, etc. Those three are my main choices. There are others that people take on with the title, such as vegetarian. I like chicken to much to become a vegetarian, so I'm not jumping on that boat to quickly. (Sorry chickens, you are just to delicious to let you live) Another thing people choose is to not have promiscuous sex. Well, I don't plan on having sex at all any time soon. (Especially if it's promiscuous. Haha.) So I guess I'm on that boat too. Haha. In some minds it has a bad name though because one time in like Utah or somewhere there were a bunch of Straight Edge gangs, attacking people who did not take on that lifestyle. Well, I don't do that. I barely flaunt it. I just sort of use it as an accuse for why I don't drink and stuff. It deters people much better than "I don't drink" does.
So the point of telling you all of that. The people whom I know who do drink and such see my as judgmental because I don't, I guess. This sucks because they don't want me around in the first place because I don't do anything and now they especially don't want me around because they think I judge them for the things they do and I don't. Well I don't judge! I just don't do that stuff for my own personal reasons; you can do it if you want. You're choice, who am I to judge?
The real reason I don't judge is because I am afraid of people judging me. They say those who are judgmental don't wish to be judged. But what about those who aren't judgmental because they themselves don't want to be judged? What about them? Well, I'm one of them. One of the self -conscious people who don't judge in fear of being judged. I know it's not nice to judge because of my fear. I do often make assumptions, but I never judge you by your actions or words. I just find out for myself though experience what you are like. Sometimes the assumptions are wrong, but I never take them to heart until proven. So do what you want, who am I to judge?
Much Love,
Abundant Felicity,
~ Jenna