Hopeless?

To egotistically quote myself, "I'm hopeless. Hopeless in this thing they call love." and life for that matter. That's a quote from my musical, if you wondered. A musical that you should read... but I do not trust the world of the internet with it for it doe snot have a copyright yet... So, if you know me join the group on Facebook. Ask me the name if you need to know... But as I was saying, I'm hopeless. To quote myself again, "Am I pretty? Don't have to be beautiful. But am I pretty? Even the most little tiny bit? Am I pretty? Don't have to be beautiful. But am I pretty? Pretty enough for him?" Another quote from the song rightfully titled "Hopeless."
That song has been playing itself endlessly in my head lately, that and another song that has not yet been placed in a musical... and may never be... Eh... I won't put up that song... too personal. The "Hopeless" song I actually wrote for my musical, most of that that is. The other song, was actually written from my heart, where the best and most embarrassing songs come from. It takes me awhile to want to share a song with my friends; it takes even longer for one of these personal songs to be taken from my private grasp.
Well, the point of this past was to talk about my hopelessness but I don't feel like it anymore... It just depresses me more. Hahaha, not really. Just frustrates me and makes me laugh at my sadness. Not like tears sadness, like "This is sad," sadness. Whatever...
Talk later...
~ Jenna
P.S. Premonition was right... My great-grandmother was having surgery for a bleeding ulcer around the time I felt it... I wasn't told about her surgery. I was told she was okay after she went home from the emergency room, only to return the next day... Scary...