The Painful Truth

Pain...? Yes, it is something I am familiar with. Physically, emotionally, mentally, and any of those other "ly"'s (Except Sexually, and anything similar... Heh-heh) So yes... pain. Great pain, not so great pain, little pain, big pain, immense pain, happy pain, throbbing pain, you know the works. The reasons for my pain today, well I can't say. There are many reasons. Some I can't quite put my finger on, some I could get a bulls eye on if my pain where a dart board. Yes, pin is something I know. Pain is something we all know.
I don't quite know why I decided to talk about pain today. It's not like I'm depressed again. I'm far from that. Any maybe, that is the cause of my pain. No, I do not mean that being happy causes me pain. What I mean is the things that come along with happiness and what come along with actually being social sometimes complicate things. And complication often leads to pain.
I guess you could say that I am glad for the complications. For this pain that I have now is not the pain I used to endure when I was feeling low. It's a different kind of pain, a confused heart throbbing pain. A pain that I know wouldn't quell with the making of more pain as old pains did. A pain that has many solutions, all confusing and all impossible for my heart to want to pursue.
You know of this pain, I bet you do, yet you don't know it. It's a mixture of anxiety, confusion, excitement, and all the rest of those high strung feelings. I know there is one path I should follow to end this pain, but it is easier said than done. And as I've observed, it still doesn’t get easier there is just new pain.
Now, I shall stop depressing you. And no I'm not depressed... I'm just reflective. (This keyboard squeaks...) Well, talk to you later.
Much Love, (Yes, I know you missed the love)
~ Jenna